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"Creation and Destruction: The World's Two Most Fun Things To Do!"Some thing in the back of my mind, where there still is some humanity left, says that I should do something normal like watch TV, order a pizza, surf for internet porn, or mail an old friend.
But all I can concentrate on is destruction.
The only thing left in my sight is redemption or annihilation. Shades of grey become black and white, colors fade... Drugs keep me to the point that I think most people normally enjoy life at.
I know that I'm a sick twisted bastard, but she made me what I am.
"Antichrist Superstar"
With the coming of the year 2000, there had been a lot of silly talk of the Antichrist.
This is all bullshit.
You see, I know the Antichrist, actually, I live with him. He is actually a nice guy, good to have on your side too when the "End Times" are near. I dated his sister once, but he isn't pissy about it, thank God. Anyway, he isn't a bad man, he is just here to set Christians straight as to how it really is. Of course, to do this, he is going to committ mass genocide and eventually destroy all organized church.
Hey, he used to be a nice guy, but shit happens! He saw enough hipocrisy, lived in the middle of nowhere for too long, worked at a pizza place, and went to church every Sunday with his family... You'd be ready to bear God's wrath too! You thought Santa Clause was bad when you was a kid? This mother fucker's keeping one list, and it's very short, and I'm glad to be on it: It's called the Spared List
"Apathetic"
I have a thick buzz on tonight. Just got a quarter.
I drove to her house in the hopes to somehow allevite the loeliness left in the wake of Candi's departure. At least it wasn't a queston anymore of who I would find to dispell this agony,it was for how long.
Who was no longer an issue.
Thick, dark eye make-up, dark, red lipstick. This was my high.
This was my vacation.
This was my get away.
Is it so wrong to check the mail everyday in the hopes to hear/say good-bye?
"Issues"
I could never understand why she couldn't say "Bye".
She couldn't do it or stand to hear it on the phone. She couldn't bear to hear it at the end of a night. She said that it sounded so final. Yet, she left so quick and said so little.
Why did she have to leave so soon?
"Faster Than The Speed Of Self=Destruction"
It's always good to have friends that are there for you, well, sort of.
Who was there when I had that bad night at work? Jim Beam
And who was there when the money ran out. Jack Daniels
Who was there when I found out my girl was cheating on me? Jim
But who was around when that love one died? Jim and Jack.
Who was there when my girl left? Jim and a little Jack.
Who was there when I lost my job after telling the boss to play hide and go fuck herself? Alot of Jack.
Who was there when I beat that mother fucker to death for taking my girl. Jim, all the way.
Everyone needs to be able to count on someonw I guess.
Created on ... November 17, 2000
