Long December



I am a coward.




"I don't want to die, but I don't want to live like this."




You need a candy bar? Well, I need a reason to live but you don't hear me bitching to you now do you?




"Role Call"

The weak; the cowardly; the schizo; the lazy; the asshole; the stupid; the failure...




Don't you have something better to do?




Have you hugged someone else's wife today?




Random Declaration #712




Do me a favor and either shoot me or be quiet.




I got an idea, why don't you eat some of my shit?




You can't stand what I do for you.




Maybe you're wrong. Did that ever cross your mind? I'll wager that it does constantly and that's the problem.




I'll burn every last picture and trincate right after I strike through every work.




Allow me to ruin your day.




"Swear"

The really fucking sad part is the fact that my life didn't start getting really complicated and really miserable until after I stopped with the drugs. How fucking sad is that?

Fuckfaced, cunt-fix, queef-robbing, douche-whore, sac-fuck, dick-suck, motherfuck.

A fine example of how a life without chemical assistance is like tourette's: A lot of random cursing.




I don't have time for your shit; I have real problems in my life.




Moaned like a whore


Girated like a dancing monster


All but said "Jam it in, now."




Go share yourself with a donkey. Twice.




Here's a hint Mike, when someone doesn't answer the door after ten minutes of pounding or after the twelf time you ring the bell, chances are they aren't going to answer it at all, you half-witted fool.

By the way, I believe ,if I have tallied correctly, that the general concensus is that you are a douche.




Nine dollars worth of pick three lottery.

Ten dollars of the powerball.

Two cases of cokes on special for $5.82 on a food stamp card.

Two money orders, both to total $425.

No ID, No tobacco.

One cup of two hour old coffee.




I feel so violated.


Why does he feel the need to tell me this shit?




"A Different Approach"

Are you happy when you're miserable?

Do you feel your life is best as a cluster-fuck?

Is it optimal in your opinion to be sad and doomed?

Will you never make an effort to do something right in your life?

Don't like words like whore, shit, fuck, slut, piss, douche, dick, cock, bastard?

I'll tell you what, don't let me hear words like illiterate, neglected, starve, beaten, uneducated.

Don't like phrases like "fuck off", "eat my shit", "suck my ass", "play a game of hide and go fuck yourself"?

Then don't let me hear phrases like "together for the kid(s)","who cares", "only because he/she loves me", "good enough", and "settle for".

Maybe if kick enough people in the ass, someone will get tired of the pain. Maybe, just maybe, if I stir up enough shit someone might want to do something about the smell.

Fix it.

Stop it.

Change it.

Do something.




Noone gives a shit about this anymore anyway.




Better crazy than stupid.




I might give half a shit if I thought you ever had.




Where you are now you can't even imagine what the bottom will be like.

Imagine your pain as a white ball of healing light

Only after disaster can we be resurrected.

It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.

You have to give up.

I say, may I never be complete.

I say, may I never be content.

I say, deliver me from clear skin and perfect teeth.

This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time.

I want you to hit me as hard as you can.






I'll try to never make the same mistakes again.