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I am an American aquarium drinker
I assassin down the avenue
So, another Friday passes by. Thanks, Chad, if you're out there.
I finally got a job. A sad, sad job.
Almost paradise, we're knocking on heaven's door.
So, (again) I've been growing out of the ground, it feels.
Let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
Let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers
This is not a joke so please stop smiling
What was I thinking when I said it didn't hurt
I wanted to leave you. I begged myself to let it away. Fie, flie, you daemon spaerit.
You were so right when you said I've been drinking
What was I thinking when we said good night
I wanted to move you, to make you see me. I wished so much for you to want my raucous spirit, my wily ways of being obsessive chain-smoker poet. I wanted you to weep for my hurts and hold me away from myself, to protect and serve, sever, same damn difference.
And oh my, what time has passed and what transgressions were made and repeated
and repealed.
I feel odd and kind of crazy.
A girl needs a gun these days hey on account of those rattlesnakes.
I want to hold you in the Bible-black predawn
You're quite a quiet, domino, bury me now
Take off your band-aid 'cause I don't believe in touchdowns
What was I thinking when we said hello
I could have been so good to you. I still believe that I can be good for someone.
I wanted you to want me more than air.
I wanted you to be sick with hurt and longing for me.
I wanted to do what nothing in your whole sad life had done.
I wanted to leave a hole in your heart so that I could fill it.
Make sense?
Oh, bell.
Every woman's got a little Scarlett in themselves. A little vindictive reflection for all that could have been
This isn't a rant, it's a plea. Come back to me. Come back.
Dad, I wish I could have made you prouder. I wish I could stand on my own two feet and say "I did this." Love me for it. No. It will never be enough for you, ever. I told you that you were a fag, and it made you happy and gained you a whole new family to start fresh with. Never mind the family that you all ready had. Why do you think I never came around?
Mom. Thanks. And shut the fuck up. Because I think I could be happy being fat.
I always thought that if I held you tightly
You'd always love me like you did back then
Then I fell asleep in the city kept blinking
What was I thinking when I let you back in
I don't want to do this anymore. I'm tired of being angry. It's not worth it. Let's laugh at misery instead. Because you can either laugh or cry.
love me. don't want them. don't think of them.
And to Madame M, I fucking hate you, I fantasize about killing you in my sleep, my chubby hands wrapped around your slender porcelain neck, ripping your massive curls out of your head in tufts, crying with insane happiness at my simultaneous victory and defeat.
Hey, Rhiannon, why don't you go to South Carolina?
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, I'm beggin of you, please don't take my man.
I am trying to break your heart
I am trying to break your heart
But still I'd be lying if I said it wasn't easy
I am trying to break your heart
god damn, i'm either fucking gone out of my gourd or quietly becoming saner. I feel better right now than I have in years.
I understand that it's kinda cryptic. It wasn't meant to be. I don't know what I want, but I'm starting to get a better idea.
let me make it through another day.
every day in every way I am getting better and better.
I'm the man who loves you
